5.03.2012

Ben's Beautiful Change: A Guest Post

Hello all. This is my chance at a post for Any May a Beautiful Change. I am grateful for Katherine in many ways including affording me this space to write about my beautiful change. I am grateful for those that have suffered my boasting about Katherine’s book and some who fell to the wrath of my protectiveness. Thank you and sorry are quite honestly the words I use the most.

If you have read the book or a preview of it, then you are aware of my drinking issue – I am an alcoholic. Alcoholism for me is the manifestation of a physical allergy coupled with a mental obsession. I won’t bore you with the details of what that looks like. For six years I went through attempts to stop drinking. In 1995, I decided to go to an AA meeting on the campus of Kent State. It was my first introduction to the AA lingo but most importantly my first introduction to the book Alcoholics Anonymous (known as the Big Book).

That book is my ultimate beautiful change. I’ve never read a book written so perfectly. I can’t imagine any word being phrased differently. It reverberates in me daily. Here are some of quotes:

“What we really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of our spiritual condition.”

“…trudge the Road of Happy Destiny.”

“If we are painstaking about this phase of our development, we will be amazed before we are half way through. We are going to know a new freedom and a new happiness. We will not regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it. We will comprehend the word serenity and we will know peace. No matter how far down the scale we have gone, we will see how our experience can benefit others. That feeling of uselessness and self-pity will disappear. We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows. Self-seeking will slip away. Our whole attitude and outlook upon life will change. Fear of people and of economic insecurity will leave us. We will intuitively know how to handle situations which used to baffle us. We will suddenly realize that God is doing for us what we could not do for ourselves. Are these extravagant promises? We think not. They are being fulfilled among us—sometimes quickly, sometimes slowly. They will always materialize if we work for them.”

Every morning is a new morning with no headache and knowing where I am. It has been over 10 years (11 on August 31). Any day a beautiful change, indeed.

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